2012 Year in Review

I think it's important to reflect on your past year because I don't want to repeat "the same shit" and have it be another "2012."  Although 2012 has been an amazing year, 2013 has a new bar to raise...

This was a year where I was truly a single gal making things big and meaningful for myself.  In terms of love, this was the year I "grew up" and stood up for myself when I wasn't getting what I needed.  If for whatever reason it ends, I always tend to blame my own insecurities.  Our self-worth shouldn't be reflected from a man's acceptance or rejection; it comes from loving yourself.  I know my self-worth and someone else will see this and appreciate it.  If you want to be in a loving, trusting and connected relationship, you yourself should be loving, trusting and connected and not just be "open" to love.  Being open to love only means that you're ready to receive it but you're not willing to put yourself out there in fear of being vulnerable.  Note the enormous difference.

Various domestic and international trips opened up my eyes about the world and made me humble and grateful for the life my mother and father created for my brothers and I.  While my horizons widened, much of the world is still very close-minded with theirs.  My trip to India opened up a spiritual and humanitarian side; I want to read up on Asian philosophy and reconnect with Buddhism.  For 2013, I want to make a difference in how we raise our new generation.  I will start by becoming a mentor.  My 50-something year-old coworker told me that I inspired her and my youngest brother told me that he looked up to me when he was growing up - something I didn't know for several years until recently.   It's never too late to make a change (or to tell someone that they mattered or still matter to you).  Imagine the possibilities with a pool of motivated and fearless young minds.   

Bal Prakash School for orphans in Rajasthan, India.

My health and wellness was at an optimal level because I took it seriously for the first time in a long time.  It was no longer a "have-to" but a "want-to."  I am SO grateful to have pole dancing/fitness in my life.  I gained an outlet for stress relief, self-confidence, a secret naughty side, and core-strength.  Running was another activity I took up that completely surprised me.  I always believed that I wasn't made a runner but putting in the dedication to train changed my whole mentality about how I limited myself when I didn't even try yet.  Four 5k, one 10k race and one Warrior Dash obstacle course later, I'm ready for more!  2013 Super Spartan is in September and I plan to teach pole dancing again by June.  Aerial silks classes starting April.  All this led to an even bigger realization that I want to work for a health and wellness company.  Here I come!    


Time to really live up to my nickname and be "somethin' like a phenomena!"  

When I was teaching at Zack's Dance Loft last spring. 

Hello world!

No more excuses. I've been wanting to create a blog for years now and today's finally the day!  Why didn't I just open up blogger, create a name and just start posting?  Well, I was a perfectionist.  And all you other perfectionists might know what I'm talking about when I'm going to explain that I didn't procrastinate but rather needed to find the PERFECT blog name, get on the PERFECT blogging platform and find the PERFECT niche to blog about.  First it was going to be about one topic and then it side-lined to what seemed like a better niche.  Then oh wait, someone else is already doing that - no one is going to want to read my blog.  Then I didn't have the right blog name.  Years later, this would now fall into procrastination.  Damn creative avoision.  

You know what's better than perfect?  Done.  Done is better than perfect.  Even if it's shitty and makes everyone laugh.  At least "done" has some ground where it can get revised - at least an idea has sprouted from something and is cemented somewhere at that time and place!  "Perfect" will never come because it's just an idea in our minds that such a state of flawlessness exists.  So here you are world, I give you "Just for CC" blog. 

Now what finally kicked my ass to just do it?  The very name of the blog explains a big part of it.  Just for CC - that's me.  When I first wanted to blog, I experienced so much of NYC life and culture that I thought it would be fun to share on a blog for friends and family who ask about what all the things I do.  Okay, so it was going to be a personal blog.  When I shared this idea with a friend, she thought it could go big and gain a lot of readership.  Yea, I could think of bigger ideas to blog about, maybe even make money off Ad Sense.  All these other distracting ideas would come in and yet my blog wasn't even created yet.  Before you know it, I had too many ideas and lost the original intent - that the blog was supposed to be for ME.  

I had dinner with a college friend one night and he said he was going to send me some links on some posts he thought was interesting.  That same night, he created a Reddit account for me with the username, justforcc.  He subscribed to a bunch of threads that he thought I would like (one of them being sex tips, har har) and said "Yea, if I didn't create an account for you, I wouldn't have sent you anything."  Just like that, done.  I had a Reddit account with threads all lined up for me.  I was touched.  And shocked at how honest that username was.  There it was starting at me, my new blog name.  My original intent.  Here's to my first post and many more to come!